Perpetual Flash Backs

The ugly dragon reared it's beastly head once again. Despite everything I have learnt, it takes very little to have me cowering beneath my desk.

I am sick and tired of this; of myself and my past. Oh what i would not give to re-live my life over, just so i do bot have to go thru this perpetual flash-back of falsehood, lies and pain.

I need to cross over my own Tennessee line but I do not know how...

God help me please ...

My Missing Shoe

I had spent the week past in a whirlwind trip of Ireland on business. It was unscheduled and it was rushed. Yet, in between the the rolling countryside and the winding roads, the boardrooms and the hospital rooms, I couldn't help but be very aware that I was traveling with my better half.

I had jokingly said some time back that if this trip had materialised, I had to go it alone - that I needed my space whilst traveling.

It's funny how you do not realise what you need until you do not have it. I needed you very badly on this trip - even if it was just to calm me down at the end of a crazy scheduled day.

I was walking without a one shoe. I do not want to do it again.