Four big and one small

Ben turns 41 today. He is off celebrating with his pals and by the time I see him next, this day would be long came and gone.

It is a poignant day. Not because this is a contest of who gets the best of his time. And it is really not about today as in the day and date.

Ray died, shortly after his 41st birthday. And I, no one better, knows how short life is... The things he could have done, if he had lived longer.

And that is why today, Ben's 41st birthday is an important one. Because I need him to cross this.. Not just a bit of it, half of it, or most of it. I need him to cross all of this.. And have many more.

I missed out on one lifetime... God, I do not want another snatched out from under me again.