Sunday, May 13, 2007

Cinta (Love)

I had wanted to write about love today... tales of it being extraordinary, unexpected, eternal, unconditional and pure.

But the words would not come, would not flow. Maybe it's because it takes the great ones who have experienced it in such manners to be able to express it as such.. for the rest of us, I think the words of Neil Gaiman says it best:

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.


And that's all I shall say about that.



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